Baby, you dont know what i want, like seriously.

am so disappointed luh, i was so excited that youre gonna gimme a xmas card,
end up you didnt. ):
i dont want any presents from you uh, i prefer thoughts from your heart.
whenever i tell you i want something from your heart, i really hope and wish you knew what i was talking about.
But youre a guy, you'll never understand, unless you really try hard to.

you know every monthsary that we spend,
a part of me is always hoping you'll give me a card or something you made, though its cheap or whatever.
thats what i wish to receive from you most.
but only on our second month you surprised me.

gee, i shouldnt hope and expect anything from you !
zzz, why am i like that, ):
no hope, then no disappointment.
i should have known better.
RAH.

and i'll admit i was kinda sad when you barely ate the pasta i so painstakingly prepared.
i know it didnt turn out nice, and you didnt have much appetite.
totally not your fault, but i couldnt help but to feel sad.
cos this is the first time i put in so much effort in making dinner,
using my bare hands to marinate the stinky chicken, frying and cooking and baking.
i spent an hour to make the pasta luh.
haissssssssssssssssssss.

bad day.
not gonna see you for the next three days.
makes today even worse.
BAHHHHHHHHHHHH !

Be it, "I Love You" or " I can't take this anymore" ;
Say it like you mean it.

Don't say stuff out of anger and then apologise,
because Sorry means nothing.

Thank God. For Every single effing thing.(:

most of all, Thank YOU for keeping your promise to me, by taking off your shirt.
this is the bestest present you have ever given me.

(:

Hi.
im not angry with you or whatsoever, so please dont keep apologising to me.
im just a lil sad that you raised your voice and became impatient with me when i woke you up to say i wanted to take a train home.
i know you're tired after a long day at camp,
thats why i dont wanna keep disturbing you from your sleep.
i dont want to trouble you to keep sending me home when youre so tired.
zzz, did i do anything wrong?
i think not.

but raising your voice at me?
thats a little far-fetched.
im already trying my best to control my temper whenever you lose yours at me.
dunno why, but im feeling frustrated cos for some reason its like im becoming the old me again.
im starting to give in too much.

or is it that im not understanding enough?
im afraid i might do something wrong again and that im not good enough for you.
i. dont. want. history. to. repeat. itself.

done.