SIAN.

today i asked you why you changed your call wallpaper and you said cos you sian alr.
i was rather taken aback by what you said.
good lor, now see my face long sian alr huh.
still can say ff girl nicer. (Y)
hais, saddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. ):
break my heart max.
and i know if i carry on saying it you will say i make a big fuss out of nth.
but girls are sensitive creatures, esp me.
everything matters. oh well~~~

and the thought of spending lesser time with you really makes me sian ttm.
once you start earning money by doing the horse thingy, you'll hardly have time for me.
guess i gotta start finding stuff to do to kill time already.
haissssss, what to dooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
but i know you want money to maintain your car, so i shall just support ya.

sian, dno why now like feel sad.
mood swing again.
zzz hate it when i feel empty for nothing.
rahs.

I'm sorry, i really am.

perhaps you deserve someone better.

You're not as nice and gentle as you were before.

You've changed.
Dont keep saying you havent, cos if you havent i wouldnt be saying you have.

From the things you say, your responses to me, to your every action.
I constantly question myself if im being oversensitive, but after some time i realise im not.

Take the previous weekend for example,
You stayed at home to sleep when i went to take off my eyelash extensions.
In the past you would have insisted to go with me.
& the next day i said i wanted to go cdc and the bank.
You slept at home till late and met me only in the evening.
In the past on your off days you would wake up early to spend more time with me,
But now?
You stay at home and have enough rest before you come out to meet me.
You would have volunteered to accompany me to wherever i wanted to go.
Last time no matter how tired or sleepy you are you would still come down and go everywhere with me, and even coming to my place to fetch me and go together.

Not that im demanding and wants it to be my way,
but its just that you dont even think of doing things for me anymore.
If you had asked to go with me i would have said no need, but i would still feel good cos at least you have that thought.

You spend less time texting me nowadays,
always either forgetting to reply me or not even checking your phone.
You used to text me whenever you can, my phone would receive your text every minute or so.
Yesterday night, text halfway never reply me, i gotta text you again then you tell me you busy.
After talking to whoever you were talking to also never text me again.
Until i msged you again then you tell me you going geylang.

& just now after you reached home i asked you to text me after you bathe and eat.
You didnt text me back, you were playing game.
Dont you need to at least tell me?
I was waiting for your text -.-
I realise that now you would rather do other stuff than to keep me company.
The worst thing?
You send me replies of not more than 4 words.
Should go take a look at your replies now and those that you sent me in the past.
I find myself being like last time already.
Always waiting and waiting for your replies.

Hahaha, maybe cos last time you wanted to leave a good impression on me.

If i could make time rewind, i would wanna go back to the time when we just met each other.
things are different now.

Now that ive spilled out my thoughts,
i feel better.

You don't even have the thought anymore.

*inserts disappointed face*

My heart takes me to places that have happy endings so perfect that make me feel they wont ever come true.

But with you, is it really possible? (L)

Im sorry for walking away just now.
i didnt know how else to react, but my heart hurt like anything.

i dont know if im being selfish, but i just wanna have you all to myself.
yeah, what a bitch i am.

we're gonna have soooooooooooooo little time together from now on.
fml. ):

In this new year, i hope the Love between the both of us will stay as strong as ever.
me hearts you.
mean it !
♥