I've something to tell you, but i keep asking myself,
''Is this the right time?"

but i know i cant be selfish.
maybe not now. maybe after some time after you totally get over me.

Do you miss the moments we were snuggling together in bed?
Do you miss the times when we cooked pasta together?
Do you miss eating cheesey onion omelette with skinless nuggets?
Do you miss having Macs and playing drinking game?
Do you miss us?

Cos, i do.

&i know for sure to me it aint just any memory.
you said you'll forget me in a month yeah?
hurts to hear that you think i disgust you and that you dont ever wanna see me again.
but then, if doing this makes you feel better, i'd do what you say.

You hate me now, dont you?
you told me to do something to make you hate me so you wont feel so out of place.
true enough, i guess i unknowingly made it happen.
It's good for you now right?

Today would have been our 9th month together if all this didnt happen.
but come to think of it, i should smile because WE happened.
when out of so many girls out there, i had a chance to be your special one for that short period of time.
im thankful.

You'll be happy.
ily.

Hearing stuff about you and her, i couldnt control my tears and cried so much.
it's like an open wound being poured with alcohol, and then being slapped on it again and again.
i've never felt so much pain before.

I hate being like this, but at least i get to see you.
knowing you still love me, it somehow comforts me a little.
if i could have just one wish, i'd pray so hard for time to rewind to when we were together.

today i cooked porridge for you, and only succeeded on the second attempt.
and stupid me scalded my hand with hot water, got red marks and bubble on my hand now.
you werent really concerned and i was a little sad.
but at least you finished the porridge, though it was barely passable.
thanks for giving me face.

this is the first time ive ever done so much for someone,
and i really gave my best.
i love you so much, and i need you with me.
i dont know why, i thought i would hate you and leave you,
BUT I JUST CANNOT !
you cant bear to let me go too, right? ):

Aaron tan, i miss you so fucking much.
come back to me, will you? ),:

i know i shouldnt be thinking of you, but i just cant.
every minute of the day im missing you, missing the times we spent together, missing the boy who made me happy everyday.

tell me, how can i forget someone who is a part of me?

I am damn greedy, wanting more and more of you.

If you had to sacrifice one, between me and her, who would you choose to stay with?

You were the first who came to my mind.
My desperate calls for help, you chose to ignore.

You should get an award for the most heartless.

I think about you being together with her,
i feel like dying.
i feel like putting an end to my life.
i want the pain to go awayyyy.

i just saw this on Tumblr,
SHE IS
BROKEN.

Here i was, thinking about you every single fucking day.
There you are, having the time of your life with her.

The words you said today,
the things you did,
the tears you cried.
REAL OR UNREAL.

i fucking hate you now, i swear.
thanks for playing with my feelings.
THANKS ALOT !

Hearing your voice just now, made me tremble.
it has just been 4 days since i stopped calling/texting you.
19 days since i saw you.
you're heartless enough.
cos i can never make myself do the same thing to you.
the days feel like years.
every day im getting worse and worse.
i make myself smile when im not happy at all.
when im at home, i only have sadness and tears which i hide in the day to accompany me.

i miss you so so much, but you seem to have moved on.
why'd you even go...? ):

I never knew how much you didnt wanna see me till today.
Hurting much, but thanks.

I hope all will be well for you.