I got a feeling this isnt our private space anymore.
I dont believe you view this space more than once a day.
I think you already showed her.
So i wont say too much.

But, if youre reading this,
PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF !
heard that youre having fever, i'll be praying that you will recover vvvv soon.
dunno why im still so worried and affected even though it's none of my concern anymore.

Freakkkkk.
but i hope you never ask her to go to your mom's place to accompany you though...
Sigh. ):
Get well soon my dear.

Anyone can insult me, but not you.
I will never forget what you told me earlier on.
It hurts so fucking much.
But should i be thankful i got to know how mean you can be?

When my friends tell me things about you, i choose not to believe them.
Cos afterall, i was the one with you, and i know you best.
But now you're actually pinning me as a slut like your friends do.

If i was as evil as you think i am,
i wouldnt have to wait till now to expose you.
and i didnt know my friend was her friend too, until i told him about the car.
and he asked me if the girl was called TT.
you wouldnt believe me but i still gotta tell you,
THE WORLD IS THIS SMALL.
and things are so coincidental i couldnt believe it myself too.

and please, dont fucking put all the blame on me when things cock up.
dont make it seem as though i am trying to break you both up.
dont fucking think that just because ive never blamed you for anything you can fucking claim that everything is my fault.
you dont expect me to feel so miserable and keep everything to myself alright.
i dont see any wrong in confiding in my friend.
how the fuck would i know they were friends?!
its after mentioning about the car then he asked for the girl's name.
I DIDNT PLAN FOR THIS TO HAPPEN AT ALL.

i am human, i got fucking feelings.
dont take advantage of me when you know i'll always have a soft spot for you.
If i were to explain myself to you, there wouldnt even be a chance you would believe me.
Youre just gonna doubt every word i say and say more degrading things to me.
YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHAT KIND OF PERSON I AM,
YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO KNOW ME INSIDE OUT.
if i didnt turn out to be as innocent as you thought i was,
then im sorry.
when we were together, you should already know how i was as a person.
i really thought you knew me and believed i was a good girl.
so damn disappointed that you judge my character like that.

another thing, she asked to meet me.
and i didnt contact her tyvm.

So much for 'loving' me and saying 'im the best you ever had'.
I feel sooooooooo fucked up crying for the whole of today.
And having you to hate me and say such hurtful stuff,
i dont know why the fuck i still dont hate you.
how fucking stupid can i be-.-

Oh i forgot, i lost the old you.
You've changed so much, the new you sucks.

You're right.
Who am i to expect anything from you?
You dont even have to meet me cos you've your own happy life now.

You just pity me, dont you?
I feel so unimportant to you now...

"You argue over the littlest things with the people you care about most because those are the relationships you’re willing to fight for."

Love, if we could turn back time, would you still choose to leave me for her? ),:

I threw away the cake i baked for you.
Spent alot of time and effort but looked like you didnt need it.
Utterly sad cos ive never done this for anyone before.
Heartbroken that you're doing so well without me.

You're not reading my blogs everyday anymore.
You're getting over me.
You dont love me anymore, and this is killing me.

< /3

When it comes to loss, I've never been sporting in this aspect. I need all the closure I can possibly get. The explanation, the amicable settlement, the clean break, everything men can't give. It's this lingering thought of possible reconciliation that makes me do the silliest things; not-so-accidental bumps into one another, drunk-dialling, long soapy texts & the list goes on. And even after establishing the fact that it's over out loud, more than often there's still this tinyyyy part of me that's secretly hoping that things would be different.

I hope you know how im feeling.

Baby, I’m sorry...
For constantly wanting to talk to you.
For always asking to see you.
For getting sad, when you take long to reply.
For saying things that might piss you off.
For coming off as annoying.
If you don’t want to talk to me as much as I wanna talk to you.
If I think about you too much & too often.
If I tell you about my pointless drama when you don’t really care.
If I come off as being clingy..

But it's just me missing you. ),:

You never change.
Im so so so so disappointed that you lie to me again and again.

And the fact that you had the intention to go find chicken again,
i dunno what else to say.
am so sad, but im in no position to be sad alr right?

Haiiiiiii, )':

I guess this time, it's really Goodbye.

No matter how you think of me now, i'd still wanna say, thanks.
For giving me so much happiness, for being the best, and for leaving me.
I love you, always will.

Guess i finally did something to make you change your impression of me.
I dont know what else to say, im just sorry for what i did.

i dont deserve you anymore.

You will not believe how extreme the measures i take are to prevent myself from texting you.

I think i should get it clear in my head that you dont need me around, you'll be fine with her.
I wonder how you would feel if i was the one who left with someone else, and you were the one left alone.

I wonder if you regret leaving me.

i really believed that you would never leave.
i was so damn sure your feelings for me were unbeatable.

Well, what can i say?
BabyA came at the wrong time i guess.

Even if i could turn back time, i would have done the same thing.
cos i wouldnt want you to come back cos of the kid.
you may say you still love me, but things are different already.
the moment you felt for her, it all fell apart.

So, i guess my decision was correct.
but then again, im sorry i had to keep it from you.
i just didnt want you to be put in a difficult spot.
i hope you understand my intentions.

Baby, i hope you'll leave a space in your heart for me, and dont ever have me replaced.
Thank you for everything. I love you, always and always.
Dont ever for a second forget this.